Cathy

I HAVE A NEW LJ

2003-07-26T14:37:11Z

This is the last entry in this journal, I've had it for years its kinda sad. Anyway the new one is like my sn, Masspke, add me to yo friends fo shiz, ttyl.

<3Cathy

Yeah

2003-07-22T02:51:45Z

Last night me Paige Erin and Kels went to Aaron's and hung out, I got bit by bugs cause I'm sweet heh. Then we came back here and watched Donny Darco and talked to people online and got scared, good night. Today the kids were awesome, I got in trouble at work for sitting on a picnic table, yep. I accidently showed up a half hour late cause of a schedule problem but Erin is the best boss ever so she overlooked it hehe. Then I got out and Paige called me as soon as I got in the car.

I picked up Paige, we went to my house and I changed. Then we went and hung out with Josh in the skate shop and picked up Erin and Caitlin. Then we drove up to the mall and ran into Aaron, Mellissa, Kris, Raabs, and Bobby. Aaron has a tattoo of a pineapple on his arm now, best ink I've ever seen hehe. We went to Walmart and got my foot air freshner back, score, and then I pulled over on the side of the road and me and Caitlin played on the slide of some playground equipment store, it was sweet. Then went to Friendlys for ice cream and to the park. We swung and it was nice hehe. Me and Paige and our skirts. Now home.

Excited for the bday Wednesday, you should be too.

Hmm

2003-07-20T18:41:13Z

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comfortable, and needed

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Frrriiidddday :)

2003-07-19T16:10:18Z

Work was actually fun yesterday hehe. Me Erin and Penny are getting along and we act like we're the same age as the kids and spend our time giggling and goofin around. Matroom and the Paigemaster was good times and getting knocked off mats. Oh ya and I went home on my break and was covered in whipped cream, thanks Mike.

After work I went home and got stuff together then drove out to RI to hang out with Nick. The ride was obnoxious and my directions were horrible. It took me under an hour to get home but there was a different story. So I picked him up and he bought me Dels which is like flavored frozen lemonade and it was good. Then we went to the Providence mall which is HUGE and walked around. Hit the beach and Iggys for doughboys, all this cool stuff Mass seems to have been left out of, then back to his house. And I was tired cause I went into work at 6:45am that day but I had a lot of fun and Nick you're reeaaallly reaalllly awesome and we'll have to hang out again sometime soon! :)

I had funnnn in RI, drove home and was there by 11:30 so I went to Paige's and we hung out there and it was good. We slept in her rents sleigh bed hehe, all 4 of us only after I fell asleep during Y Tu Mama Tambien, its okay though I already saw it.

Now Im going to see Bad Boys and I should've already left, uh o, bye!

Thanks Nick
<3Cathy

Brown Sugar what

2003-07-17T23:09:19Z

I turn the big 17 on Tuesday, presents are more than welcome. I accept them 2 weeks before and after, its the bday season. And I am the President of the Andover Ymca Leaders Club, its sweet.

My job is kind of sweet. I get paid to go to the beach and tan, and movies, and etc and I like it. Plus I work with fun people and we have a good time in general. I am the master at first aid and ya.

Me Paige and Skippy went to Aarons the other night it was fun. Hung out outside, made noise. Highlight was Aaron teaching Melissa how to drive and her swerving and Kris' slam dancing in the back. We hung out and came home. Tuesday night me Paige and Skipple watched Boondock Saints, best. Ya and then we wound up in my driveway with Matt and we chilled.

Last night I'll keep it short because I cant recollect most of it. Went to Andrew's house in NH with Paige to see Squirt, Dan, Jon, and Sarah and it was fun. Got in and Andrew says "shot of tequila?" It was all downhill from there. Me and my mom have been fighting so I apologize for the amount I drank it was obnoxious I know. I wound up swimming in the lake, which I remember was fun I liked it, then again after Jon spilt vodka on me. After that I drank more and passed out on the bathroom floor. Woke up in a bed though. Ya.

Tonight me and Kristen are hanging out which should be good, haven't chilled with her in quite some time. And tomorrow I'm driving to RI to see Nick, also fun.

I updated!

2003-07-13T16:55:58Z

I was getting so good at this updating thing too. After about a week though I want to update but remembering shit just seems like too big of a task. We'll start with Westfield. Ya I went to Westfield, and watched fireworks, and stayed at Squirts and then saw people. Like Kara and Linz, and Amanda, and Amy, met Sarah MORRISSEY yeah thats chill, and umm other people were there like Andrew and Jon and Dan and etc. We saw fireworks and they we're pretty then walked back to Squirts and we drank, o did we drink. Me and Squirt currently have tradition, hueggar bombs what? Heh. Then drove home obviously, well that was Westfield.

Then I dont know what happened until Sunday ahh ya. Thursday show. I'm in love with Thursday, 4th time I've seen them and I'm seeing them again on the 26th, leave a comment if you wanna come, and it's awesome. I went with Kristen and Paige and we saw people like Nick Brown and Chris and my friend Nick from RI and it was fun. The show was a Rye Airfield which is a giant indoor skatepark and was amazing. After the show we climbed ramps and slid down them. It was good.

Monday camp started, ya that was rough. I like the people I work with but the Y is the devil encarnate sometimes I hate it. Our kids have no room so we wander around all day with 30 kids and its not fair to them but theyre amazing kids. We get to go to Singing Beach on tuesday, I love Singing Beach.

Spent a lot of time with Paige this week as always. Friday I went and saw Pirates of the Carribean, not bad, then Kristen slept over like old times. Yesterday I hung around, picked up Paige, watched High Fidelilty and the Skate Shop and then WE PICKED UP SKIPPY! She's finally home! So we drove to the airport and got her. We came back hung out with Skip. She got me penis mardi gras beads and a FINDING NEMO PURSE! You know the diving mask that has P Sherman 42 Walloby way Sidney on it? I have it in purse form! Amazing.

Then me and Paige went to her rent's friends house and hung out with her mom and Lucy and step daughter and friend. It was funny cause Lucy went to the highschool so we were swapping stories outside. Then to Skippys, my house, and this morning we went to Bruggars and Kris hooked us up. Leaving me here, and Marfa is coming over and I'm going to Fire n Ice with Danielle tonight its exciting.

Lately I dont know things have been weird but its okay. Maybe everything is just going to come together without me knowing it, that'd be nice.

Remember the world's not falling apart, no matter how it feels. Remember the world's not falling apart, things are falling in place...

<3Cathy

A good old book burnin

2003-06-30T06:49:45Z

So umm lets see. These last few weeks I've been at the Y like everyday. I try to write in this thing but I can barely remember which day was what and when we did stuff. Umm last week Aaron, Bobby, Raab, Dan, Ashley, and some other people came over and went swimming hung out in the basement it was good times.

Friday was Skippys last day here, sadface. First we went to the skate shop, for a long time. Had nothing to do, sat there and watched the special features to Haggard. Then we went to the beach, Friendlys, and then Aarons, then food shopping. Heh.

Saturday I had lots of training, then Kristen's 18th, Happy Birthday! Slepted over her house.

Today I went out with Paige. We went to Aaron's and listened to him Kris and Justin play. Then went to the river with a pyschology book and two cans of lighter fluid. It doesnt take a rocket scientist to know what happened next. The funny part was Kris kicking the cans, followed by pouring the lighter fluid on a large shovel and swinging it around then beating the lighter fluid can with it. And finally admitting he was drunk. We met a girl named Christine she seemed really cool. Then me and Paige drove down 495 listening to death cab for cutie, just drove. It was good. We watched the Hours, good but messed up movie.

Tomorrow hopefully the beach.

<3Cath

I dont know

2003-06-24T06:34:18Z

Just when everything seems like its finally okay, I get the chance to think. I'm tired of a lot of things and don't want to put up with them, along with those things I mean some people too. I'm just not in the mood to confront anything. And I don't think I will be for awhile. I don't know.

I think I spend most of my life confused.

Went to lifegaurding tonight, swallowed the pool. Having it with Steve Jon and Marfa though is fun, at least I have them. Summer should be okay. Dont think Im going to Buffalo though cause my hours at the Y went from 25-40, ya fuckin cool I know. And apparently Im working 3 days this week, cause I said thats okay right? Fuckers.

<3Cath

"We like to give head" and oh ya we cheated death

2003-06-21T04:27:05Z

Everything I've done has been with Skippy Paige and Danille they = we.These past days we're interesting umm we went and saw Nick in Portsmouth then heading back here. We had a picnic kinda at the Skate Shop with Josh and we watched Old School and ate teddy grahms. Then me and Skippy saw Finding Nemo. Then I had orientation. After I went and hung out at Paige's till like 10:30, we went to my house and grabbed Adam and Skippy.

Then Aaron, Chris, and Bobby came over and we went swimming. Chris went in his UNDERWEAR which were fitting and resembled a speedo. Aaron went in his too but it was more boxer briefs which I think I still have. They came in, hung out till like 2am. We played pool and what not and they had to leave cause they left like 20 people at Aaron's. Later he called and we said why dont you open the door we're at your house in pink bikinis, and it was because they were in my backyard. So we cracked out some alcohol and chilled under the deck and it was nice. We hung out inside till like 4:45am playing games and what not then evilness and it was bad but whatever.

In the morning I drove the girls home. I went home and fell asleep. At 12:40 I got Danielle, then Paige, then Skippy. Then we hung out at the skate shop which is where we go to pass the time. We all went to my house and waited for Chris to get there. We then took Chris' jetta to Portsmouth. He drives insane, I thought I was woah, but my god I think we cheated death. We hung out at Bullmoose then went to my house. From my house we drove into Harvard Sq. Went to all the good places like the Garage and Urban Outfitters then left and leaving was a fuckin adventure, I didnt do bad driving in Boston though.

After we came here, then left for Aaron's only to find out he wasnt home. So we drove around Meth town and then I drove Paige and Danielle home. Me and Skippy went back up and he still wasn't home. We had the best conversation ever, honestly it basically said we were the same person. We have the same background, grew up the same way, most of the same problems, and I love her to death. I almost cried on the way home hehe. Then it was 12 and like cinderella, I was home.

Who knows what tomorrow is gonna bring, other than staff orientation 12-6
<3Cath

This has been the best summer already, thanks girls and Danielle were gonna miss ya!

Fuckin cool, ya

2003-06-19T17:54:45Z

masspke
Magic Number	18
Job	Singer
Personality	The Glass Is Half-Empty
Temperament	An Oft-Exploding Volcano
Sexual	Whatever, Whenever, Whoever
Likely To Win	The Wrath Of My Peers
Me - In A Word	Belligerent
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Summer

2003-06-19T04:01:12Z

So far this Summer has been insane. If this is a preview for whats to come I think I might die by the end. I haven't slept in my own bed since Thursday. I've been hanging out with Kristen, Paige, Danielle, Skippy, Robin, Steve, half the known world basically. I've met a shitload of people. I've been holding parties, going to some, having them again this week and my god. I have consumed more substances than anyone should. It's been fun.

I have a job at the Y this summer, theyre terrible hours but I have a job and so desperatly needed some steady cash flow. I am going to be living there these next weeks between orientations and such.

Tomorrow Im going out with everyone and their mom. Me Paige Skippy and Danielle are going to chill at the skate shop for a few hours hehehe with Josh he's great, then orientation, then secret oOooOooo hehe. Well I'm gonna go shower and such. Im on the go go go.

<3Cathy

We chugged Bacardi like it was everyone's birthday

2003-06-17T14:57:52Z

Yesterday I went out with Robin we hung out with Josh at the skate shop then we got her food. Since she cant eat in my car cause she smells at it we went and visited Danielle and Carlos. Then went to the Y, saw Marfa and made phone calls. After that we got her sis graduation stuff and I dropped her off. Then I went to Leaders. After I got a call, picked up Skippy, Caitlin, and Pat. We went to N.Reading and got Pete. Then grabbed Paige and Danielle and came back here.

From there we went to stop n shop and what not. Then started drinking. Then Steve came over. And we drank. I had a lot of Bacardi and I mean like 13 shots along with some other stuff. And I passed out I guess. After a very long time though. There was funny stuff, we went for a walk, we watched Lilo and Stitch, then in mid sentance I fell back and passed out. Whats up 13 shots under an hour ya, it was late anyway.

So today I have to go see if I have a job or not, then Im going to see Finding Nemo with Paige Danielle and Skipple. Danielle is visiting from Delaware, she is chill.

<3Cath

Summer Kickoff Weekend

2003-06-15T22:47:09Z

First off I'm going to start by saying I don't think I'm going to drink for awhile, because I hate when everyone plans to get drunk, then I'm the only one that does, and although its funny to everyone, I feel like an asshole so ya.

Friday Kristen, Paige, Robin, Skippy, and Sid came over to my house afterschool then we watched Almost Famous and made weiners, and made lots of jokes about making weiners. Then we drove up to Hampton to see Catch 22, Mighty Mighty Bosstones, Vodoo Glow Skulls, and the Pietasters. It was a good show. Almost got in some fights. Wound up in some pits, wound up on the floor, but it was cool. We followed some boys, Paige and Robin got boys numbers. Then we left at like 12:15ish hopped in the car and went to stop n shop for food. The number boys Brent and Pat came with and then came to my house. We hung out and talked and they're actually really cool. I liked the discussion with Pat and Skip about back in the day stuff. Then they left, and Steve Knott came in. Steve is funny. We hung out, we drank, then I drank, and then I drank some more, didn't know everyone was stopping drinking, and I drank. Then I made a jerk out of myself. I try to make things fun by myself when I'm drunk and we're not doing anything. And ya, I still feel like an ass.

In the morning I woke up at 11, Paige and Steve left, I drove Skippy and Sid home, then watched dazed and confused until Robin woke up. I got ready met up with Kristen, we packed up my car and headed to the beach. We camped out at the beach. Walked around, went shopping, got some fries, then took te thousand blankets and pillows we had, folded down my car seats, and made a sleeping place. We watched movies, walked on the beach and wrote stuff, then slept.

We were driving to the bathroom at 7 this morning, then just decided to drive all the way home. We went to Kristen's, watched the Chipmunk movie among other things, and slept. Tonight we're going back out cause its sweet there.

This week I suggest you call me to hang out because I have nothing planned to do. So ya hit it up and itll be fun. I am also buying a beach pass because the price went from a 2 dollar day pass to fucking 7! That will be purchased. Got to go though, Much love.

Oh and I fucking hate the Y, I dont care if you dont want me and dont want to give me the job for the summer that I deserve, fuck you if you think Im going to do anymore favors and work 5 days a week next year. And fachk you.

<3Cath

Me and Paige and typing

2003-06-12T02:39:32Z

dedicated in the loving memory of the lj entry that deleted itself on paige

x fragment ideas: mm cherry popsicleee
MassPke: yum
MassPke: I hate people who like weird flavors its like stick to the basics, the classics are always the best
x fragment ideas: hha
x fragment ideas: i like banana ones though
x fragment ideas: but thats about all the crazy i get
MassPke: I liked the choclate covered banna ones
x fragment ideas: hahahah
MassPke: but ya gotta hate the people that like flavors like tooti fruiti you lika mi booti its like yo fo sho cut the shit and grab a red one
x fragment ideas: haahahahhahaa
x fragment ideas: I LOVE YOU

MassPke: i like string cheese
x fragment ideas: i just belched and it was amazing. i wish you could have heard it
x fragment ideas: haha me too!
MassPke: but my mom made a fatal mistake
MassPke: she didnt buy the parrot
x fragment ideas: oh no
MassPke: she bought the cow
x fragment ideas: thats not good
MassPke: who does that?
MassPke: wrong fuckin animal
x fragment ideas: apparently she does.
MassPke: couple ecosystems short of a planet that mother
x fragment ideas: hahahahah
x fragment ideas: im in fucking love
MassPke: with?
x fragment ideas: you. duhhh

x fragment ideas: thats no good
x fragment ideas: my mom did that once
x fragment ideas: she bought like this huge econo-size family pack humongo lets-go-feed-iraq pack of string cheese. but it was icky.

Oh YA

2003-06-12T01:40:24Z

Umm week, been good. Monday I kinda didn't go to school cause I'm an asshole. Yesterday I went though, then afterschool I took Skippy (it was her birfday) and Caitlin to Hampton with me to buy show tickets and it was sweet, we cruised. On the way home an incident occured with boys, and Caitlin stuck her butt out of my car window. Yes, SHE MOONED A CAR FULL OF UMASS BOYS, made my life. The I went home and out with Kristen which is always a good time, then home again, and did projects.

Today I went to school, ya I did :), then I had my health final which I flew through, grabbed Kim and we were outta there by 1 it was hot. Then I went to the Y, I did the thank you letters, ya that was awesome how I had to write a letter then look up addresses and do all that today, not that Im bitter about it or anything. Chilled with Danielle, then went to the mall. I bought a halter and flip flops and saw steve it was good times with myself and the mall. I have big finals tomorrow. Currently it is 9:38pm, and I havent studied jack shit.

Friday bbq at my house afterschool, you had all better come it's gonna be good times. Then its off to the show with Robin, Paige, Jackie, and Skippy, itll be fun.

Maybe Saturday camping with Kristen, theres a garunteed good time. And well thats it, IM DONE FRIDAY YA! So close:)

<3Cath

Boooored

2003-06-09T12:40:04Z

Stolen Shamelessly from Jeff and Beth haha Im a dirty theif!
If I were a month I would be: October, woah leaves and crispness
If I were a day of the week I would be: Friday, so exciting
If I were a time of day I would be: 4pm
If I were a planet I would be: uranus, okay what up third grade
If I were a sea animal I would be: NEMO, after he was found
If I were a direction I would be: East
If I were a piece of furniture I wouldbe: a looovvveseat
If I were a sin I would be: pride
If I were a historical figure I would be: your mom
If I were a liquid I would be: alcohol, it runs through my veins
If I were a stone, I would be: what kind of question was that one?
If I were a tree, I would be: A MR MIAGI TREE
If I were a bird, I would be: FREEBIRD
If I were a tool, I would be: haha tool, um a hammer
If I were a flower/plant, I would be: a lily
If I were a kind of weather, I would be: sunny and so damn hot
If I were a mythical creature, I would be: an elf, like liv tyler
If I were a musical instrument, I would be: an acoustic guitar
If I were an animal, I would be: dog
If I were a color, I would be: pink
If I were a vegetable, I would be: i dont like vegetable and if i didnt like myself i'd end it so the question is irrelevant
If I were a sound, I would be: OH YA
If I were an element, I would be: water
If I were a car, I would be: 2003 ford explorer, redfire w/graphite interior, its me in car form
If I were a song, I would be: too many
If I were a movie, I would be directed by: Kristen cause that would ensure its quality
If I were a book, I would be written by: me
If I were a food, I would be: grilled cheese, always good
If I were a place, I would be:Aruba, its so damn chill
If I were a material, I would be: fleece, good answer beth
If I were a taste, I would be: sweet
If I were a scent, I would be: Sexy by victorias secret ya what
If I were a religion, I would be:the one that id start because i dont like any of the others enough to "be" them
If I were a word, I would be: drive or ambition
If I were an object, I would be: a speaker
If I were a body part I would be: eyes
If I were a facial expression I would be: a grin, smile, ya
If I were a subject in school I would be: NATHIN maybe gym ya thats pretty sweet ms p is the shit
If I were a cartoon character I would be:SHEEN from jimmy neutron best kid ever
If I were a shape I would be a: a circle, just when you think im done im only gettin started wooooooo
If I were a number I would be: 7

mMmmm ya

2003-06-08T03:27:10Z

This weekend has been pretty uneventful so far. Friday night I went to graduation with Robin Paige and Jackie and it sad. Sad because so many people I know are leaving, and sad because well, we're next. I was tired and hot (and by hot I mean I looked dead sexy) and so on the way out I was a little bit of a jerk to the pedestrians walking in the middle of the fuckin road so I layed on my horn the whole way out, that was fun. Then I hung around and went out with Kristen and it was good. Today I woke up at 1, meandered around then Kris came over and we watched movies and chilled and she's sleeping over. Tomorrow I have to be at the Y at nine for the conference, I get out of that at 4 :( but it's okay I'll make it fun.

I'M DONE WITH SCHOOL FRIDAY and it's not going to be a second too soon trust me. And then hopefully will be going to see Catch 22, The vodoo glow skulls and Mighty Mighty Bosstones on Friday with everyone but I have to drive up to Hampton and get the tickets. And all I know is some point next weekend I AM GOING TO GET COCKED I dont care who with, I'll make a party, everyone is coming, yah, I like how I can do things like that.

Well I'm out
xox<3Cath

newfndglry15 @ 2003-06-05T20:53:00

2003-06-06T00:56:52Z

My good mood has gone to shit and I'm so pissed off and so tired of this I NEVER get worked up over things like this but it's happening way to much and its completly rediculous. How the hell do things like this happen to me, REPETITIVLY. Honestly I'm so frustrated and I just want to scream and cry or do something other than just sitting here thinking about and trying to tear it down cause the only thing I'm doing is tearing myself down in the process and I probably sound like I'm off on a tangent or whining but fuck that Im pissed and its my journal I can cry if I want to. No I cant cause I CANT cry I never cry, ugh if I wasnt so confused right now I could write I swear...

That made me feel a little better but I still have a long fuckin way to go and Im going to go for a drive

Life

2003-06-06T00:14:33Z

So I've been stressing about next year, being a senior, a gv, applying to college, getting in, everything. And I've realized what happens, happens. I can't stop time, I can't change things that are done so I might as well just go on with it and do the best that I can with what I have. With that I feel a bit better.

Today I left after 4th with Kristen and Kerrie and we went to Kristen's and watched "a guy thing". It was an okay movie. Tomorrow I'm thinkin I might go visit Nichole in the hospital then maybe go to graduation or maybe go see finding nemo AGAIN hehe.

My summmer job is up in the air it kinda sucks I'm disappointed that what I was planning to do fell through. Hopefully everything will be okay though and I can pick up special intrest hours at the Y and stuff. No matter what happens though it'll be a good summer, it has to be, just the fact that its summer and no school is enough for me.

I've got to admit a lot of my friends are getting significant others and I'm really jealous. I just want to find someone, and yeah.

<3Cath

Yay

2003-06-01T21:35:25Z

You are Audrey Hepburn. You aren't a firey beauty
that stops cars, but when people get a good
look at you, they adore your face. You're
lovely and it's more natural because you never
fuss too much over your looks. Your manner is
charming and easy, your voice soothing, and
your mind sharp. You will have many admirers
and as long as you keep your head on your
shoulders, your choices will be wise.

Which vintage movie star are you most like?(For girls)
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So weekend:
Friday after spending the day sitting in my car with Paige and Jackie "helping the music festival" I went to the mall with Paige :) and I got a new carribener(sp?) for my keys and we got ice cream and talked to Paolo and then we went to my house. Then Robin and Brad came and we got in my car and went to pick up Laney. Then we all saw Finding Nemo BEST MOVIE!!! Then dropped Brad off and drove around screaming the words to every song, then dropped off Paige and went to my house. Laney passed out and me and Robin were up till 4:30.

Saturday I woke up drove Laney home then went home met up with Kristen she left for Gloucester I got my stuff together then left too. Got there we all drove aorund saw Oona, and then Nick came and attacked me hehe it was chill to see Parco then back to Katelyns, and food. Then I left for Westfield. Whats up thunderstorms and rain. I couldn't even see but still made decent time. Got there and went to Squirt's. It was girls night. We watched about a boy and then another movie which is escaping me. And then Kara came over, Kate was there we all hung out then sleep.

Sunday Woke up Squirt me and Amy watched Boondock Saints then I went home. More rain. Stopped by the Y then home home. That's it.

And now my summer plans:
Me and Kristen aren't working, we are going to hang out, sleep, tan, and go to the beach, and do things that don't cost money. Beign unemplyed could be the best thing that ever happened to us.
I wanna learn how to play the acoustic guitar too, I might actually do it.
Me Squirt and Amy=Buffalo 7/21-7/26
Leaders School=8/16-8/21
And maybe me and Squirt might go to England, that'd be fun.

If you read this I'm sorry, leave a comment
<3Cath

Good song, old song, but good song

2003-05-29T23:36:58Z

I'm only pretty sure that I can't take anymore
Before you take a swing I wonder what are we fighting for
When I say out loud, I wanna get out of this
I wonder, is there anything I'm gonna miss

I wonder how it's gonna be when you don't know me
I wonder how it's gonna be when you're sure I'm not there
Hows it gonna be when there's no one left to talk to
Between you and me, cause I don't car, hows it gonna be

Where we use to laugh there's a shouting match
Sharp as a thumbnail scratch
A silence I can't ignore like the hammock by the doorway
We spent time in, swings empty
I don't see lightening like last fall
When it was always about to hit me

I wonder how's it gonna be when it goes down
How's it gonna be when you're not around
How's it gonna be when you found out there was was nothing
Between you and me
Cause I don't care
How's it gonna be

Weekend

2003-05-27T01:45:38Z

Friday I went to the mall with Kristen and neither of us bought anything, which always happens, but we went. Then we hung out at her house for awhile and watched some movie that I can't remember and then I left to let her sleep because she had a saturday in the morning. So I went to Robin's apartamente for a fiesta. There were lots of people there. I took everyone oin my car to Wendy's and let Jay drive, he made the car go sideways, skill. We went back, alcohol had been poured, beatings ensued with the fly swatter, Jay nailed Robin, and me not fair. And Sean had to watch the boats. Then they left and Jim and Brad came over and hung out. We watched part of the shining then some other movie, cant remember cause that happened after the whole Im not gonna drink thing went right out the window.

Saturday I woke up and lied around for awhile. Then packed up my shiz and left for home. Got there and lied around some more until Kristen and I made contact and we left to get Lance. The three of us went to gloucester to Katelyn's house. Josh was there and we picked up JP. We watched goldmember, got food, monica came over, and then we fast fowarded through coyote ugly and left for Kristen's house. We went to Harrisons, I let lance drive back to Kristen's. Around eight I went and got the alcohol came back and started drinking. We all left and got stuff to mix with that was a fun car ride. Went back and then I saw the trailer for bruce almighty we all said we wanted to go see it, so I said lets go. We drove Lance home and went to the 11:10. Now the thing about Lance's ride home, he taught me how to fish tail and I let him try. He almost nailed a fence, I mean I swear he was gonna hit it, then a mailbox, then because he's him decided to do it one more time and nearly hit a car. I just screamed at him to pullover. He did, that was it for our near death experience, and Lance's driving carreer in my car. I knew it wouldve been my fault if he got us in an accident, but the second swerve was unecessary. We went back to Kristen's, drank some more, watched Mall Rats, and slept.

Sunday me and Kristen took Josh home at like 8:30 cause JP and Monica left earlier that morning cause Monica ad work at 7:30. Got back to Kristen's and we napped until like 3. We then proceeded to walmart got her stuff, then to best buy to purchase the entire first season of Dawson's Creek, and watched most of it. It was a goood afternoon. LEXUS KID OWW OWW HOTTIE hehe. Yeah then I went home for the first night in awhile and slept.

Today I woke up to feeling like shit, was suppose to hang out with Liz but she slept over seans and whatever I dont know what happened there. This afternoon me and Robin went to the mall to buy her a skirt and shoes and left with more.We roamed, talked to Jay, saw thunder thighs, and went back to her house. She made the best grilled cheese ever! Then we watched trading spaces and I came home.

Now I want to fall asleep and die, I loooovvvvvveeee you

xoxox<3Cath

I'm getting good at this

2003-05-22T00:28:46Z

I've been really good about updating my journal lately, I'm proud of myself. So yeah I'm def like dying, I'm sooo sick. I was before but the rally and the cold and the polar bear swim just took me and turned me into a WALKING TRANSMITTABLE DISEASE, not the sexual kind though :)

Lacrosse is good it's almost over. I love lacrosse but I'm kind of ready to just be able to go home afterschool, and go to the beach, and do things with my friends. So the end of next week I'll be able to do that up.

Yesterday was awesome. I didn't go to school because I had a doctor's appointment and my mom didn't make me go back. So Robin called me in the morning cause she didn't go either and we spent the day tanning by the pool while everyone was in school. Yeah what we're sexy.

This weekend gonna be spending alot of time with my good friend Kristen hehe always good times with her. AND WE'RE DEF GOING TO FL TOGETHER FEBRUARY VACATION. "I'm NAAAKED, I LIKA THE MAN" Can't wait to relive that stuff haha.

Yeah so I miss alot of people, I love rallies but for the next week I can't help but think about people far away and leaders in general. Oh well it's not like I need to keep my mind on school or anything psshh.

Well I guess I'm gonna go, but I reminder. Andover is holding a Beach Overnight hopefully in July, just keep it in mind.<3Cath

yeah

2003-05-20T14:51:32Z

I just felt like writing in here. I've been thinking about college and high school and leaders alot lately. I'm going to be a senior, a gv, and applying to colleges this fall. And I'm scared, really really scared. A lot of my friends have an idea of what they want to do but honestly I have no clue, anything I'm interested in are polar opposites in what I'd be doing, where, money, and lifestyle. And it's a really weird feeling thinking about becoming an adult and having to take charge of my own life instead of relying on my parents to steer me in the right direction because it's going to be my turn to make my own decisions, I mean everyone makes decisions, but I mean huge decisions. I love history, it's my best subject, I'm really into it but with a history major there's not much to dow but work for the government or become a teacher. And if you know me well, I don't think I can see myself behind a desk.

I think of things that would be rewarding to me, like working with kids,people, basically like a recreation major. I could deffinatly see myself working on a camp or something, because I love being outdoors and everything that comes with it but is it enough for me. I dont know, I guess I just really want an idea of what I'm interested in doing with my life.

I also don't want to be a senior, I really do love highschool, I love the age I'm at and what I'm doing, I'm having fun. But time moves without me and the time I have goofing around can't last forever. And leaders seems so final to me, next year it's over, I'm gone, and I don't know what I'm going to do with myself when it is. I've got so much out of it, it's really had a huge impact on who I am. And I'd like to think and I hope the people I've met I'll still be friends with even after highschool is over.

Yeah so basically I just wrote this because I've been thinking about it alot, well thats it<3Cath

I did the polar bear swim!

2003-05-19T00:56:44Z

Alright so I'll admit I thought this weekend was going to suck because most of my friends weren't going but it was sooo much fun.

First off it was a leaders school reunion, me gorman and adam were in the same living group again, how sweet is that? And our leaders school advisor Dawn was also ours for the rally. But our childish ways caused issues. We had cantelope for dessert one afternoon and me and gorman thought it'd be funny to through the skin at adam from across the table, this went back and forth for a good ten minutes. He smashed it on gorman's face so I nailed him, got it all over his hair and his face. We were doing chants, our table got called on to serenade another one and I was sitting on the edge so everyone was looking in my direction when Adam took a whole piece of it and smashed it alll over me, the entire dining hall loved it. Next meal it was water and then I smashed cake in his face. This concluded the food fights. There were sharpie fights, and flinch fights, and it was good times. And gorman wrote me the best poem ever and I love her to pieces.

Friday we left the Y around 6:30ish got there close to ten cause we took a school bus. The ride was funny though. Had to give the boys massages and me and Lance fought hehe and he made grunting noises to the point where Bobby turned the lights on, I just ducked cause it sounded so bad. Slept on Brian for awhile and just hung out, hehe Kristen had fun in the back too, isnt that "ironic". The weekend was good, Friday night we had a commercial thing and I nailed Lance in the face by accident with this bopper thing and his eye wouldn't stop tearing, I felt sooo bad. Then we did a rain storm and stuff, then sleep and I minipulated my way into Frotier 3 yaaa what what Im so loved I can switch cabins!

I ran chapel Saturday morning which was good. Played basketball then UFO in which I took out my ankle. Then values and lots of free time, played frisbee with nick and walked around with Kristen, hung out in the boathouse with everyone it was sweet. Then went to the dance, good times hehe, danced like a ho the only way to dance. And that was actually fun, got to hang out with Monica and Tara and Suzy who I haven't seen in a long time. And KRISTEN hehe with I wanna rock your body. Vespers was good too got a back rub from Ben gave one to Adam and people think its funny to tickle me when I'm inbetween people, it was interesting.

Sunday hehe today was goood. I woke up at 6:30 and for the first time ever did the polar bear swim!!! I was standing there in my bathing suit freeezing before I got in. Mark Ben and Adam thought it was funny explaining to me how cold I was going to be. And I was I ran in and out, stood on the dock and watched some more people jump in, Ben tried to warm me up. Then I took a hot shower but my hands couldn't tell the difference between warm and cold. So I was freezing, changed, went to breakfast and Carol told me to go get something hot, asked me if I played UFO in my sandals cause she said I would do something like that hehe. Got cinnamon apple tea and porched it with Mark Adam and Gorman. Then breakfast. Packing time was also grad theft flag time sweetest thing ever. Chapel was good sat between Adam and Mark and sang songs and listened to poems and Stefan got up and made people cry and ya. Then values, then closing. Closing I again sat between Ben and Mark and got a back rub and gorman tickling my feet and it was just fun. Then we all said goodbyes and got our nalgene bottles and went home. Stopped for food on the way, slept, got knocked out of the seat by Brian like 10 times. And then drove Lance home, grabbed Danielle from the Y and me and her went to see the Matrix reloaded.

And I'll admit I wish I was back there again :)

Also last weekend was fun, I went to westfield and hung out with the girls. Went to applebees for food with Kara Kate and Amy, then to pick up limes at the supermarket, then to Squirt's and hung out there, got the drink on and it was fun. In the morning I took Kara to the Y and hung out, grabbed Kate, went to Jester's and hung out with Squirt for a long time. We eventually left at like 2, dropped Kate off at UMASS then me and Squirt drove to Melrose, dropped her off and went to my lacrosse game. Hung out with Kristen that night and she slept over. Then Sunday I hung out with Squirt and Laura for a bit then met Squirt's dad halfway, then home. It was good times.